Feeling of diminishment

I'm no doctor, and of course, don't know you from outside the forums, but you should probably read around and see what type of negative impact environment has on your perception of your own worth/intelligence/etc.

Chicken & the egg maybe, but if you're feeling depressed, by definition, you're not going to feel much yearning for anything, especially something as challenging as science, or creating things.

 

I'm sure it's a possibility as an effect of what happened. But to be sure there is no way we can really tell unless you have them check your brain out to see if anything is not functioning the way it once was.

I cannot imagine what it must feel like, however.
Is it also possible it is still there but, you are just psyching your mind into thinking it's not wanting to feel these thigns because you are actually just depressed? (I apologize if this question or any following somehow offends you :/) (depression can do wonders to the psyche, been there)

Have you also just tried doing what you would normally do before?
Create something, learn something new and see how it feels?

 

Maybe some memory loss? Why not try learning that stuff again?

Also, Why not take an IQ Test to measure it up?

 

the human brain requires training, never leave it uncultured. I d advise you to get into arts, philosophy etc, as they are both interesting, subjective and fuel the imagination/thought, stimulating your Cortex.

 

I'm sure you'd advise against anyone smoking marijuana as well then.

 

Holy shit that's unfortunate. You think there might be permanent brain damage?

 

I personally think its may be depression. I know right after my mother passed I basically didn't want to do shit that I previously enjoyed and basically ground to a halt and spent most of my time in my room watching TV.

 

Grief does not equal depression. Depressed people are sick, most of them don't know why they feel like they do and therefore have no clue where to begin to work on their problem.

@assembler
I don't know you, so it's hard to tell what it really is. But considering the circumstances, I wouldn't say depression is the first choice when you're looking for the reason of your change. Also most of the symptomes you described won't match with depression. Try the brain scan and if there's nothing they can tell you, try a therapist. Maybe it's more like a post-surgery shock condition, something subliminal that you can't grasp by yourself.

 

It could well be a combination of both, it's also a well known fact that the more intelligent you are the more likely you are to get depression.

From my own experience I was once a highly qualified structual steel engineer.....but the stress of the job coupled to mounting debts drove me into deep depression, it was so bad that one day I couldn't even make a cup of tea,I just forgot everything...my wife found me 20 mins later just stood in the kitchen looking puzzled.

I did notice a significant IQ drop too, I was 155 now it's 128 and it takes some extreme motivation for me to do anything but I've found that if I go to the gym 4 times a week I've not only got a clearer mind but I'm also motivated to do stuff.

 

It could be psychological. Since your brain got cut off from oxygen, you're naturally going to wonder if anything happened to it.

If you slowly believe that something bad happened to you, it can lead to depression. Get yourself checked out and look at old scientific material that you used to understand. Doing those things will tell you what you'll have to do in the future.

 

Go read some books and see if you have trouble understanding them or not. I mean books about programming or engineering.

 

Hope you will get well soon... or at least, better.

 

I hope you will soon feel like you did before the accident.

I believe that you will soon understand your own notes again

Sometimes in uni I can't figure something out. Then I leave it alone and come back to it later, then it seems trivial

Other times I read old code I wrote, and can't quite figure out what I did there (ok, I mostly attribute this to bad documentation) and after a while I get into the pattern again.

All the best for the future, Kevin!

 

Maybe you'll also speak in Binary?

 

Aparantly playing instruments and learning a new languages can boost your thinking skills.