All the best, hope you realise your true potential. Absolutely everyone I've ever known has gone through the same soul battering, spirit crushing, mind numbing, suicide inducing plight. This is one of the very few scenarios where I can say that mental strength is key. In years to come you'll view this in a kind of "university of life" scenario and probably laugh. (thanks Bad_ad & tom jones - lol). The best I can say is that this is NORMAL...
So here are some things that have helped me in the past and are not directed specifically towards any one and should not be taken offensively. So a few little quotes I heard that I like. “Success is a pile of failure that you are standing on.” and the next isn't an exact quote really I guy I know had a really abusive mom and finally moved in with his dad. After a while of him moping and feeling bad for himself his dad basically said. So you've fallen in a pile of shit what do you do now? Do you lay in the shit rub it in your eyes and all over your clothes and cry or do you get up clean your self off and move on? Any way some really good advice has been said here all ready. One thing I want to add as far as being employed goes just think of those people you hate to work with. For me it's when people whine all the time complain are always complaining that they are saddled with too much nobody understands them. What ever it is i try to do the opposite of those people. Rather then complaining or explaining why I CAN'T do something. I work hard and ask HOW they want it done. I ask for what the goals are and then will carry out what I'm asked to do and try to carry them out. Ahh dead battery on the laptop guess I'm done.
Thanks Teancum, it's a matter of finding a good starting position. It's just rather difficult to find where I can find one.