So I lose a friend.....for a really dumb reason

Typically it's threads like these that cause me to not be too well liked.
It's no secret I like to push the boundires of how far I can push things. Like AIM chats (I really just want that threat erased from existence)
Plus I have an anxiety disorder so I blow up at everyone.

Anyways, While I have my issues that people get caught in the cross fire of I'm in a situation. See one of my "best friends" suddenly stopped talking to me. I tired to find out why. I tried to call him he wouldn't answer his phone, Finally after calling him a spineless coward he ran to his mommy. NOW I should point out he's almost 22 and he's running to mommy. His mom tells me that he wants nothing to do with me......because he thinks I'm gay. My own fault I make gay jokes all the time but I go out of my way to assure that I am not. He never once expressed any discomfort around me either.

So obviously I'm pretty shaken up over this. I actually do have a psudo girlfriend now but he doesn't know that. My other best friend is busy with summer things and I really have 1 other friend who's just detached from the rest of reality. So I don't really have too many friends to do shit with.

I've been a mess for the last week and can't seem to cheer up so the best thing I can do is just Talk about it.

Had to get it off my chest somewhere.

SO Dunno. I just can't cheer up.

 

I don't think he was really your friend to begin with.

 

He never would open up to me. No matter how hard I tried. He really needed a strong male influence he never had a father. Which explains why he was such a pussy about confronting me and had to run to mommy.

 

Is he autistic or something? I've known bigger men who grew up without father figures.

I'm not even gonna ask you about your pseudo girlfriend...

 

I wouldn't attempt either to make it seem as though you were a male figure for him, as he obviously got the wrong impression. :clap:

 

ask yourself why you only have 3 friends

 

lol... that sucks.

 

3 close friends. I'm generally liked alot more in real life than on line.

Well here's the deal its just him and his mom I thought they needed somebody to turn to so I just tried to be there for them. Then the gay jokes started pretty early in the friendship and I kept asking him " you know I'm joking right"
and "this is ok you aren't thinking I'm serious" As you all know very well I push things as far as they'll go.

So this all comes as a shock. His mom is also very delusional. I talked to her a few weeks ago and she swears I never finished High school. THe convo went like this

Her: You should get your GED and go back to school
me: I graduated high school
her: No you didn't
Me: Yes I did
her: No you didn't
Me: Yes I did...

this went on for 10 minutes. Then she starts crying......I'm creeped the fuck out.

He's supposed to have ADHD but I doubt it. I think it might be a form of autism that or he's just a pussy. He does have a speech impedement.
He's like, You know that guy in Kenshin that's always happy he served Shishio. Sojiro I think. He's Just like him. that's the best way to describe him.

Now as far as why I only have so many friends. Generally I'm a very closed off person. I don't even tell my parents alot of things. So it's a big deal for me to share my issues with anyone. On line it's easy you just type what's on your mind. which obviously has gotten me into some trouble. Plus I'm shy
so meeting people is difficult I'm not one to start convos I just join into them. Most of my friends are either teenagers or older adults I have a few friends my age but they're all at different stages in life than I am.

Plus doubting my self because I've been diagnosed with everything isn't good for the old Self image either ya know.

I'm not the asshole in real life that I am on line. In real life I'm a lot nicer and I go out of my way to make sure everyone around me is happy.

ok Psudeo girlfriend. I just want to explain this. She and I tried dating before
but it caused me too much greif because I wanted to be with her at all times.
Then I fell for her cousin and it was just a mess. We kept talking but it was 2 years before we saw each other again. Now that we're hanging out more and more old feelings are coming back and I do NOT want a repeat especally since I've gotten worse. So we agreed to be fake dating. We're just friends but we tell everyone we're dating.

 

Read the bible.

 

Proverbs 27

1 Do not boast about tomorrow,
for you do not know what a day may bring forth.
2 Let another praise you, and not your own mouth;
someone else, and not your own lips.
3 Stone is heavy and sand a burden,
but provocation by a fool is heavier than both.
4 Anger is cruel and fury overwhelming,
but who can stand before jealousy?
5 Better is open rebuke
than hidden love.
6 Wounds from a friend can be trusted,
but an enemy multiplies kisses.
7 He who is full loathes honey,
but to the hungry even what is bitter tastes sweet.
8 Like a bird that strays from its nest
is a man who strays from his home.
9 Perfume and incense bring joy to the heart,
and the pleasantness of one's friend springs from his earnest counsel.
10 Do not forsake your friend and the friend of your father,
and do not go to your brother's house when disaster strikes you—
better a neighbor nearby than a brother far away.
11 Be wise, my son, and bring joy to my heart;
then I can answer anyone who treats me with contempt.
12 The prudent see danger and take refuge,
but the simple keep going and suffer for it.
13 Take the garment of one who puts up security for a stranger;
hold it in pledge if he does it for a wayward woman.
14 If a man loudly blesses his neighbor early in the morning,
it will be taken as a curse.
15 A quarrelsome wife is like
a constant dripping on a rainy day;
16 restraining her is like restraining the wind
or grasping oil with the hand.
17 As iron sharpens iron,
so one man sharpens another.
18 He who tends a fig tree will eat its fruit,
and he who looks after his master will be honored.
19 As water reflects a face,
so a man's heart reflects the man.
20 Death and Destruction [a] are never satisfied,
and neither are the eyes of man.
21 The crucible for silver and the furnace for gold,
but man is tested by the praise he receives.
22 Though you grind a fool in a mortar,
grinding him like grain with a pestle,
you will not remove his folly from him.
23 Be sure you know the condition of your flocks,
give careful attention to your herds;
24 for riches do not endure forever,
and a crown is not secure for all generations.
25 When the hay is removed and new growth appears
and the grass from the hills is gathered in,
26 the lambs will provide you with clothing,
and the goats with the price of a field.
27 You will have plenty of goats' milk
to feed you and your family
and to nourish your servant girls.


I've been picking this apart for days.

 

If your real life conversations are like your threads, it should be painfully obvious.

On a serious note, it's obvious that your friend is a closet fag, and he's too scared you'll bring out the real him.

 

You know that's crossed my mind. I've asked him Hey wanna go chase some girls. He never responds. I try to get him to watch porn.....won't do it. Not with me I'm just like hey you must be stressed out from all you school work
here watch this. (because ya know, spankin is a good stress reveler)

You might be on to something.

Also he has an Earring.

And being fixated on X and Zero Being gay....

I think you're right.

Another theory I have is that he fucks his mom. they are waaaaaaaaaaaay too close.

 

I usually am.

 

fuck his mom.

 

You're always on something... physical.

 

His mom calls every 15 minutes when he's out
they exchange I love yous for 10 of those 15
and he goes on about how much he loves her when he's talking to her

So there ya go.

 

Dude... you hang out with some creepy motherfuckers.


'Sall I got to say about that.

 

GoH, has officially become the best poster evar.

 

GoH, your friend is really you isn't it? :icon_toil

 

Famous quote. But no. His name's Dylan Elman.