Kid commits suicide and broadcasts it live

Fuck, this is really really bizarre: a 19 year old kid killed himself on justin.tv

Comments from viewers at the time were mostly LOLs and shit, apparently nobody told him to stop.

Here's his suicide note:

Ask a guy who is gonna OD (again) tonight anything
To Whom It May Concern,
I am going to leave this for whoever stumbles across my bookmarks later on.
I hate myself and I hate living. I think that if someone who knows me
reads this they will know who I am. So I will leave this unsigned. I am
an a@#hole. I have let everyone down and I feel as though I will never
change or never improve. I am in love with a girl and I know that I am
not good enough for her. I have come
to believe that my life has all been meaningless. I keep trying and I
keep failing. I have thought about and attempted suicide many times in
the past. I used to think of my failure as some mystical way of telling
me that I was really meant for something meaningful. The only thing I
dread, besides the pain, is the way my family will suffer. I do not want
my mother or father to think that it was anything they did that lead me
to kill myself. I never really had any plans of leaving a note. I
thought that I would not be able to describe why I want to do this and I
am right. There is no way to tell you or anyone else why I dread every
new day. My father had such high expectations for me and tried to give
me every opportunity to improve upon myself. I let him down. I think
that I am a major disappointment to him. I have a job but I?m always broke
and I am in college but barely, I show up to class but that?s about it.
I want my life to end. I am tired of f@#$ing up everything. I
am tired of people always telling me that they do not like me. I am
tired of trying to be decent. I hope that someone finds this post and I
hope that my parents know that I f@#$ed up not them. It is my fault I
screwed up my own life.
The hate that rages within me, rages not for those I love so dearly or
those who have crossed my path.
This hate rages full force towards me and only me.
I have long forgiven those who've hurt me, but I have not and cannot
come to terms to forgive myself for the things I have done to myself, and
the things I've done to hurt those in my life.
You have all touched my life in one way or another,
especially those whom I call family.
I cannot tell you how sorry I am for ending my life the way I did. I
hope that you can all find it in your heart to see it as way for me not
suffering anymore and that I am finally at rest with myself, for being at
rest with the guilt that constantly ate at me for so long.
Please forgive me all for taking my own life so early. I tried so hard
to fight against this strong battle. I have reached out for help so many
times, and yet I believe, I was turned away because of the things I did,
that it is a punishment I am willing to take, for I know that being who I am
has only brought myself and others pain.
I love you all and will forever live within the memories we created.
Forgive me.
Love always and forever



RIP


Edit: heres a capture from when the police arrived at his home

 

I was reading about it,apparently he poped a whole bunch of pills but I have not read that it was confirmed dead.

 

what shocks me most is the lols and shit the viewers left as comments.

RIP

 

some fella post the video link at a local forum.

 

Yeah, people on the internet are just fucking heartless sometimes. They don't realize there is a reality or something. I think it's a little weird and obviously done for attention to broadcast this sort of thing but it's not a bunch of LOLs when it's said and done. I dunno.

 

Suicide is a desperate last resort for some people. As sad as it is, though, I am thankful that he just wanted to kill himself, rather than take out a bunch of innocent people with him. I guess that's what separates the desperate from the psychotic.

I can kind of relate to what he's saying, too, in the sense that after awhile many things in everyday life just seem pointless. He obviously didn't feel like life was worth living, anymore.

I don't know if anyone was supposed to tell him to stop. I don't know why he broadcast it over the internet (other than the obvious "cry for help"), but I get the feeling there probably wasn't anyone who could've stopped him anyway. That is, unless his parents burst into the room as he was downing a bunch of pills...

As far as the comments go... fuck the internet. The vast majority of those comments are twelve-year-olds with no redeeming qualities except for their exquisite taste in Doritos and Mountain Dew.

 

:thumbsup:

I wish I could still eat Doritos...

 

What a sad world we live in.

RIP

 

Shit...

RIP man.. >_<

 

i wanna see, link to broadcast?

 

its just him laying in one spot for an hour, and then cops come in and almost immediately shut off the camera.

so much for his broadcast being "live"

 

pun anyone?

 

With anonymity comes the feeling of invincibility, and that feeling brings out the true nature of people. The internet is basically a condensed version of our society, and places like 4chan, et cetera, are a great place to see just how low people can get.

That being said, the kid really fucked up worse than he ever has by killing himself. Suicide doesn't help ANYONE EVER, it only hurts more people.

 

This reminds me of the "An hero" joke from 4chan. It also reminds me of another story of another kid killing himself in front of a camera.

I didn't watch the video, but how hard would it be to fake this shit, BTW? What if its all a prank?

 

well, the guy was in the same position as the lighting changed so I don't think it's just a prank gone bad (also there is a clip of when the cops bust in and a large peice of wood from his door lands on him and he doesn't react at all)

 

I hate it how the internet just destroys things. Stuff like suicide isn't to be taken lightly, and it's not really a joke.

I remember some kid dying and a news channel blaming it on Naruto...since I have friends who actually watch that shit I had to hear all about how funny it is and see a bunch of dumbass photoshops of shit to do with it. I wanted to slap them. Not that fucking funny, especially to that kids parents.

 

Some people take it to the extreme. A few wastes of breath and resources called that "An hero" kids' parents. He killed himself because someone stole his Ipod, but I'm sure that wasn't the only reason. They called his parent's and said crap like "Uh, yeah I have your sons Ipod" and other awful crap.

Anyone who finds crap like that funny is a big huge jackass.

 

I know how this guy feels.

R.I.P.

 

Shit. In desperate times like these, you just wanna escape from life. He succeeded by taking his own.

My condolences to the family.

RIP

 

Looks like someone went straight to hell. I don't feel sorry for him whatsoever.